I have often wondered how I arrived at this point in my life. How have I gone from having a three year cohabiting relationship with a girl I thought the world of, to a succession of one night stands, two night stands and what I like to think of as binge fucking.

It has never been a conscious decision making process, but has instead crept up on me and become my life. After all, we can't help what we like and dislike can we? Can I make the decision to be attracted to someone or is it out of my hands. I get the feeling that I am not alone in feeling like this, there are so many people living the same lifestyle as I am that they must to one extent or another have the same thought processes.

What has amazed me is the specific nature of my thought patterns, why am I so drawn to women that I haven't yet slept with and yet as soon as I have I need to get away from them? In my youth I used to think that I would grow out of this and that it was just a part of the mating process.

There is a reason why so many relationships fail after 2 to 5 years, and it is perhaps biological. Love and attraction are chemically induced states that ensure the continuation of the species, but those feelings fade after a few years causing couples to drift apart or split up. There must be reasons for this, and perhaps it is mankinds desire to remain married that is infact the unnatural state. Men and women are not supposed to live together for extended periods of time, but instead just for long enough to breed and for their offspring to grow to an age when they are large enough to survive under the care of one parent.

It is my contention that those couples that stay together for life are the exception to the rule, the biological freaks that buck the natural tendencies of their genes. The difficulties that exist the world over regarding relationships seem the same, and every nationality seems to have the same relationship and divorce issues.

I believe that my genes just fast track that process so that I lose interest in by partner much faster than the norm.

If you listen to your friends and associates that are married or cohabiting it can paint a gloomy picture. I personally know of one couple that I would describe as successful. All of the rest spend there time moaning about their partners, their lack of sex, passion, emotion, support etc...... it seems that the best thing to do if you never want sex again is to get married!