I do want to make it clear from the outset, I am not a woman hating bastard, a misogynist or any other thing that you care to label me. I love women, lots of them, but usually for quite short periods of time!

Since I can recall I have been drawn to the women that are beyond my grasp, the one that says no, the unavailable ones. Once they are there wanting to be with me I lose interest, not intentionally, but it happens, I can't seem to control it or change it as a behaviour so over time I have learnt to live with it and to go with the flow.

I had always hoped that as I got older I would mature and lose this trait, but the reverse has actually occured, my attention span is getting shorter with my patience at the years pass. I am a firm believer that if you haven't got what you want, go with what your got. I don't mean that from a partner point of view, but rather in life. Some people wait until everything is in place and correct before they start their business, get married, have a family etc, but I have always rather got going with whatever ingredients I have at my disposal.

I seem to have been blessed with a quirky sex drive that will drive me to the four corners of the earth pursuing a fresh challenge...... but soon gives up trying once that conquest has been made.

I have loved and I think been loved by three significant partners, each of whom I could have settled down with. In each situation however, it was as if they realised how it would end up even though they were lengthy relationships by my standards. They were most probably right too...... I don't think I will ever be a pipe and slippers putting the kids to bed type of chap. I am more of a good time charlie that women use to cheer themselves up with when their real plans didn't work out......
Not that I mind that task, it offers me all of the fun with none of the responsibility that so often sucks the life out of you.

I have the utmost respect for those who can love the same woman all their lives. It is a skill set that I am missing from my makeup.

I guess I am superficial and even though I initially feel a massive attraction to a woman, once we have had sex I only seem able to focus on her flaws and those traits that piss me off...... at times I truly wish I didn't.

Throughout my adult life I have always maintained more interest in those women who never gave themselves to me totally...... the few women who for whatever reason knew how to play me have given me the most pleasure and frustration in equal measure.

To me the most frustrating word in the world is "Maybe" it means no in "woman" whereas "No" frequently if not always means yes and "Yes" actually means maybe in "Pricktease".

I spend years in my youth chasing a "Maybe" who on and off still says yes...... and has kept me wanting her for all that time.